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Saturday, June 24, 2006

mood flabbergasted

Loot of the week.

Mango is having its notorious sale this week, which i accidentally (honest!) chanced upon on wednesday while strutting down town with keerling. I think that happened to be the first day of the sale so there were plenty of awesome stuff which had yet to be snapped up by overzealous aunties wanting to look young.

bought 2 skirts promptly off the shelf without much deliberation, couldn't resist, came back again the next day to get suffocated all over again in the midst of the scary throngs of people, and blew some more cash.

checkered mini - MNG: ~~$60~~ $36
dark brown cargo mini - MNG: ~~$49~~ $24
olive lace cami - MNG: ~~$30~~ $19
knee-length straight pants - MNG: ~~$99~~ $49
another mini for sis - MNG: ~~$45?~~ $19

brown woollen pullover - John Little: ~~$59~~ $14.50

add together with the victoria's secret barang-barang from online shopping, i really ought to start living on bread already. like NOW.

there is really no point. i just cannot do it.

Felice @ 1:11 AM

Thursday, June 22, 2006

shit, man. i think something's wrong with my blog. i cant see it. can you???

Felice @ 4:36 PM

Wednesday, June 21, 2006

mood bored

1)How old do you wish you were?
18 - where it was a nice mix of feeling grown-up and sweet anticipation of what the future beholds.

2) Where were you when 9/11 happened?
At my uncle's place where i was staying at that time. Honestly, i'm never much of a news-watcher and when i saw it on TV i just thought it was another accident before the seriousness of it all hit me the next day.

3) What do you do when vending machines steal your money?
I spend 5 seconds in disbelief that i've just been cheated by a machine, then i kick it with all my might.

4) Do you consider yourself kind?
why, yes!

5) If you had to get a tattoo, where would it be?
The nape of my neck, or my ankle.

6) If you could be fluent in any other language, what would it be?
French. I always thought that the frenchmen can spew a string of vulgarities and still sound like they're talking politics.

7) Do you know your neighbours?
in a hi-bye, how are you, kinda way.

8) What do you consider a vacation?
In conjunction of one of my previous posts, a perfect vacation for me now would be a round-Europe tour, probably backpacking down Barcelona, Venice, Spain, Italy, London. To be in transit and to have no reservations about talking to strangers. and oh, with plenty of money to spend, eating mind-blowing european foods and sipping sangria.

9) Do you follow your horoscope?
not anymore.

10) Would you move for the person you loved?
Yes.

11) Are you touchy feely?
Yes, when i have a choice. and only to my boyfriend.

12) Do you believe that opposites attract?
On a superficial level it is just physical attraction.

13) Dream job?
Freelance writer/professional photographer/wedding planner/owner of a winery/farmer on the Andalusian plain/sheperd girl in New Zealand.

if i really know what i want i wouldnt be in nus now, really.

14) Favorite channel(s)?
I dont watch much TV. but when i do, it's got to be Star Movies, HBO and Animal Planet (heee..)

15) Favorite place to go on weekends?
If i can choose, it would probably be the mountains, or a small hut near the sea with my loved one.

16) Showers or Baths?
Shower. Not that i have much choice actually, but an occasional soak is lovely. :)

17) Do you paint your nails?
No. They're too brittle to stay nice painted.

18) Do you trust people easily?
Actually yes. I give my all but sadly not many cares to catch it.

19) What are your phobias?
COCKROACHES and STEEP STAIRS. oh my God i can just DIE.

20) Do you want kids?
Yes :)

21) Do you keep a handwritten journal?
Too lazy to keep one.

22) Where would you rather be right now?
Taking a splash at the beach in Bali with my dogs, where the weather is cool and windy.

23) Who makes you feel warm and fuzzy?
Rudy, in his ungrouchy mood.

24) Heavy or light sleeper?
somewhere in between, depending on how good the reason is for waking up.

25) Are you paranoid?
sometimes.

26) Are you impatient?
It really depends. I am generally patient but it drives me crazy when someone is habitually late and when someone is not contactible on the phone. i get so mad i just want to kick something.

27) Who can you relate to?
God. and very few others.

28) How do you feel about interracial couples?
Whats wrong with that?

29) Have you been burned by love?
Hmm, not that i remember.

30) What's your favorite pick-up line?
next!

31) What's your main ring tone on your mobile?
some jazzy motorola default ring tone

32) What were you doing at midnight last night?
Preparing for an early night.

33) What did the last text on your cellphone say?
"sure.. 4 pm then? we meet at burger king?" - from keerling to meet for coffee tmr. haha.

34) Whose bed did you sleep in last night?
obviously mine.

35) What color shirt are you wearing?
rudy's grey shirt.

36) Most recent movie you watched?
Eight Below

37) Name three things you have on you at all times?
mobile, wallet, specs.

38.) What color are your bed sheets?
Blue. Something like this shade.

39) How much cash do you have on you right now?
Around 20 in my wallet.

40) What is your favorite part of the chicken?
Thighs. But i try to swear off them altogether.

41) What's your favorite town/city?
I've been to too few to have a favourite. For now it would have to be Bali, for its laidback kind of life, dirt-cheap street-side shopping and great food!

42) I can't wait till:
I get to do something i really like, and when rudy becomes an architect and is happy.

43) Who got you to join LJ?
the perks of LJ online shopping. mwahaha.

44) What did you have for dinner last night?
something i cooked for my auntie. cant remember.

45) How tall are you barefoot?
1.68m

47) Do you own a gun?
No.

48) What do you prefer to drink in the morning?
cold milk.

49) What is your secret weapon to lure in the opposite sex?
What am i? a worm bait???

50) Where do you think you'll be in 10 years?
I would be 31. Hopefully I would be happily married with 2 kids, living in a cosy house that my architect husband designs, having a job i like, having travelled and seen enough of the world to know that i am truly blessed.

51) Last thing you ate?
Cookies and Cream ice cream. and my mum's beef rendang before that. yumm.

52) What songs do you sing in the shower?
I dont sing in the shower. I shy.

53) Last thing that made you laugh?
I honestly cannot remember.

54) Worst injury you've ever had?
It has got to be the sprained ankle when i was boarding the bus at bukit timah after taking my SAT. I actually got cold sweat and nearly fainted.

55) Does someone have a crush on you?
As in present tense? not that i know of.

56) What's your favorite candy?
I dig chocolates. not candy. prolly worther's priginal.

57) What song do you want played at your funeral?
Yikes, what a morbid question. maybe Moon River by Ono Lisa.

Felice @ 12:34 AM

listening to Overjoyed by Jars of Clay

I was poring over an old magazine while waiting for my auntie to be done with her radiation treatment when i came across an article on LDR.

...What matters most is how much of yourself you want to give him should your love be tested by distance. Lots of compromise is vital, along with incredible amount of openness, honesty, and a lot of heart. You cant send a kiss online. You cant have that much-needed hug when you accidentally stub a toe. You cant even see the tears running down your partner's eyes when you tell a funny joke over the phone...

sounds damn sian, right.

I perpetually shove the thought aside and most of the time it just lies dormant and silent, somewhere at one tucked corner of my mind. However, sometimes when it feels like it, it likes to surface dangerously to the top where it forces my emotions out, right to the brim.

sickening feeling, it is.

The article was very long, essentially harping on how communication is key.
I'm just lost, you know, i dont really know how to do this, i've never done it before. not that we are professionals in communicating. I mean, sure i like to talk. A fact which probably not many knows. Given the right circumstances and mood, i can talk the cow into coming home or maybe talk my mum into insanity, but probably half the time i dont make sense, i'm just so random. but i like to talk about feelings! :) roses are red, violets are blue, i mean, like seriously. come talk mush to me. rudy, on the other hand, doesnt talk much. His blog, which contains all but SEVEN posts begrudgingly written because of a pestering girlfriend, would probably take another ten thousand years to resurrect.

and they say, that at the end of the day, LDR is the ultimate test of your love.

Those who can't swim get thrown into the sea and they either learn how to swim or drown.

Felice @ 12:04 AM

Monday, June 19, 2006

mood excited

Ok i was just about doing keerling's meme halfway when i gave up.

continue soon when the mood kicks okay? :D

Anyway, i've been thinking about going travelling alone for quite some time now. wouldn't it be cool? to explore a place in the comfort of your own skin, where you dont need to worry about waking up on the wrong side of the bed and be at risk of pissing your travel buddies. Noone to please or accomodate, just me and myself. I could wander down the unfamiliar streets, talk to strangers, be in transit, wander at the unknowns, be lost, maybe be found again. I so totally dig the idea.

Europe sounds cool but it's so far and expensive.

I really should start thinking and planning about this, man. cos this is probably what i need.

Felice @ 10:19 PM

Sunday, June 18, 2006

listening to The Blower's Daughter by Damien Rice

Ok so i've been gone for a while, not that it matters much.

a few things to update: numero uno, my ed hardy shirt freaking got lost in the mail. i'm so upset i can burn down whichever post office committed the deed. so angry!!! I had so much faith in online shopping and now this. :(

bought a pink -no its fuschia really (dammit, blogger colourbar does not have fuschia. cannot dramatize the effect with coloured fonts)- motorola razr! those who know me would know that i am so not a sucker for handphones. with all due respect to all those handphone nutheads (read: gideon), i just dont see the need to blow your pockets on a gadget whose value predictably does a bungee before you can even say "i love my expensive handphone".

So i strolled into M1 and zoomed straight at the cheapest deals.

My pink baby cost only 68 bucks. :) :) :)

whatever la, can sms and call, good enough for me.

A sudden jolt of realisation caused me to be struck by the fact that my Panasonic Lumix is pink too. And when i put my camera and handphone together they just look ridiculous. And i am not even a pinkette. It is so xiaxue-ish. disgusting.

But anyhow, i wore my pink x:odus pump on saturday, and today in the midst of rushing out from my auntie's place and huff-puffing my way to cellgroup, i wore my pink slippers plus my fuschia-patterned chingay shirt. Just for the fun of it. They matched my new handphone so nicely! *giggles*

like totally. *flutters eyelids*

Ok, before i completely ruin my reputation, we have to move on.

Rudy went on a mission trip to Tanjung Pinang today. So exciting! wished i could have gone, which i probably would have if i hadnt signed up for the myanmar community svc trip, which i eventually cancelled anyway. so wasted. And it's been barely 12 hours, but i caught a glimpse of how the next 2 years are gonna be like, with the two of us an ocean and an archipelago away.

can't say that i look forward to it, but maybe a bit of space or change is good? Am having a bit of a mixed feeling now. It's a some kind of a "sad-how-now-maybe-its-good-oh-heck-lets-just-not-think-about-it-and-deal-with-it-when-the-time-comes" feeling.

Felice @ 10:48 PM

Wednesday, June 07, 2006

mood cheesed...

I jolly well am sick and tired of super-duperly emotional fools with pea brains so small they only have enough intelligence to think about themselves and how every single one of the human population in the world has somehow failed them/broken their hearts/fly their aeroplane/killed their pet guppy/misplaced their 20 cents eraser/did not say hi on the road/forgotten to tell them (read: humour them) that they are the most gorgeous piece of shit ever existed.

some kind souls should WAKE UP THEIR IDEA and drill into their coconut heads the fact that the solar system does not revolve around their bodies and that the dirt that falls off their skin is not the miracle cure for AIDS. (oh revelations!)

all my life i stumble upon the path of sickening people who are a total waste of my time.

Felice @ 12:06 AM


Saturday, June 24, 2006 mood flabbergasted Loot of the week. Mango is having its notorious sale this week, which i accidentally (honest!) chanced upon on wednesday while strutting down town with keerling. I think that happened to be the first day of the sale so there were plenty of awesome stuff which had yet to be snapped up by overzealous aunties wanting to look young. bought 2 skirts promptly off the shelf without much deliberation, couldn't resist, came back again the next day to get suffocated all over again in the midst of the scary throngs of people, and blew some more cash. checkered mini - MNG: ~~$60~~ $36 dark brown cargo mini - MNG: ~~$49~~ $24 olive lace cami - MNG: ~~$30~~ $19 knee-length straight pants - MNG: ~~$99~~ $49 another mini for sis - MNG: ~~$45?~~ $19 brown woollen pullover - John Little: ~~$59~~ $14.50 add together with the victoria's secret barang-barang from online shopping, i really ought to start living on bread already. like NOW. there is really no point. i just cannot do it. Felice @ 1:11 AM Thursday, June 22, 2006 shit, man. i think something's wrong with my blog. i cant see it. can you??? Felice @ 4:36 PM Wednesday, June 21, 2006 mood bored 1)How old do you wish you were? 18 - where it was a nice mix of feeling grown-up and sweet anticipation of what the future beholds. 2) Where were you when 9/11 happened? At my uncle's place where i was staying at that time. Honestly, i'm never much of a news-watcher and when i saw it on TV i just thought it was another accident before the seriousness of it all hit me the next day. 3) What do you do when vending machines steal your money? I spend 5 seconds in disbelief that i've just been cheated by a machine, then i kick it with all my might. 4) Do you consider yourself kind? why, yes! 5) If you had to get a tattoo, where would it be? The nape of my neck, or my ankle. 6) If you could be fluent in any other language, what would it be? French. I always thought that the frenchmen can spew a string of vulgarities and still sound like they're talking politics. 7) Do you know your neighbours? in a hi-bye, how are you, kinda way. 8) What do you consider a vacation? In conjunction of one of my previous posts, a perfect vacation for me now would be a round-Europe tour, probably backpacking down Barcelona, Venice, Spain, Italy, London. To be in transit and to have no reservations about talking to strangers. and oh, with plenty of money to spend, eating mind-blowing european foods and sipping sangria. 9) Do you follow your horoscope? not anymore. 10) Would you move for the person you loved? Yes. 11) Are you touchy feely? Yes, when i have a choice. and only to my boyfriend. 12) Do you believe that opposites attract? On a superficial level it is just physical attraction. 13) Dream job? Freelance writer/professional photographer/wedding planner/owner of a winery/farmer on the Andalusian plain/sheperd girl in New Zealand. if i really know what i want i wouldnt be in nus now, really. 14) Favorite channel(s)? I dont watch much TV. but when i do, it's got to be Star Movies, HBO and Animal Planet (heee..) 15) Favorite place to go on weekends? If i can choose, it would probably be the mountains, or a small hut near the sea with my loved one. 16) Showers or Baths? Shower. Not that i have much choice actually, but an occasional soak is lovely. :) 17) Do you paint your nails? No. They're too brittle to stay nice painted. 18) Do you trust people easily? Actually yes. I give my all but sadly not many cares to catch it. 19) What are your phobias? COCKROACHES and STEEP STAIRS. oh my God i can just DIE. 20) Do you want kids? Yes :) 21) Do you keep a handwritten journal? Too lazy to keep one. 22) Where would you rather be right now? Taking a splash at the beach in Bali with my dogs, where the weather is cool and windy. 23) Who makes you feel warm and fuzzy? Rudy, in his ungrouchy mood. 24) Heavy or light sleeper? somewhere in between, depending on how good the reason is for waking up. 25) Are you paranoid? sometimes. 26) Are you impatient? It really depends. I am generally patient but it drives me crazy when someone is habitually late and when someone is not contactible on the phone. i get so mad i just want to kick something. 27) Who can you relate to? God. and very few others. 28) How do you feel about interracial couples? Whats wrong with that? 29) Have you been burned by love? Hmm, not that i remember. 30) What's your favorite pick-up line? next! 31) What's your main ring tone on your mobile? some jazzy motorola default ring tone 32) What were you doing at midnight last night? Preparing for an early night. 33) What did the last text on your cellphone say? "sure.. 4 pm then? we meet at burger king?" - from keerling to meet for coffee tmr. haha. 34) Whose bed did you sleep in last night? obviously mine. 35) What color shirt are you wearing? rudy's grey shirt. 36) Most recent movie you watched? Eight Below 37) Name three things you have on you at all times? mobile, wallet, specs. 38.) What color are your bed sheets? Blue. Something like this shade. 39) How much cash do you have on you right now? Around 20 in my wallet. 40) What is your favorite part of the chicken? Thighs. But i try to swear off them altogether. 41) What's your favorite town/city? I've been to too few to have a favourite. For now it would have to be Bali, for its laidback kind of life, dirt-cheap street-side shopping and great food! 42) I can't wait till: I get to do something i really like, and when rudy becomes an architect and is happy. 43) Who got you to join LJ? the perks of LJ online shopping. mwahaha. 44) What did you have for dinner last night? something i cooked for my auntie. cant remember. 45) How tall are you barefoot? 1.68m 47) Do you own a gun? No. 48) What do you prefer to drink in the morning? cold milk. 49) What is your secret weapon to lure in the opposite sex? What am i? a worm bait??? 50) Where do you think you'll be in 10 years? I would be 31. Hopefully I would be happily married with 2 kids, living in a cosy house that my architect husband designs, having a job i like, having travelled and seen enough of the world to know that i am truly blessed. 51) Last thing you ate? Cookies and Cream ice cream. and my mum's beef rendang before that. yumm. 52) What songs do you sing in the shower? I dont sing in the shower. I shy. 53) Last thing that made you laugh? I honestly cannot remember. 54) Worst injury you've ever had? It has got to be the sprained ankle when i was boarding the bus at bukit timah after taking my SAT. I actually got cold sweat and nearly fainted. 55) Does someone have a crush on you? As in present tense? not that i know of. 56) What's your favorite candy? I dig chocolates. not candy. prolly worther's priginal. 57) What song do you want played at your funeral? Yikes, what a morbid question. maybe Moon River by Ono Lisa. Felice @ 12:34 AM listening to Overjoyed by Jars of Clay I was poring over an old magazine while waiting for my auntie to be done with her radiation treatment when i came across an article on LDR. ...What matters most is how much of yourself you want to give him should your love be tested by distance. Lots of compromise is vital, along with incredible amount of openness, honesty, and a lot of heart. You cant send a kiss online. You cant have that much-needed hug when you accidentally stub a toe. You cant even see the tears running down your partner's eyes when you tell a funny joke over the phone... sounds damn sian, right. I perpetually shove the thought aside and most of the time it just lies dormant and silent, somewhere at one tucked corner of my mind. However, sometimes when it feels like it, it likes to surface dangerously to the top where it forces my emotions out, right to the brim. sickening feeling, it is. The article was very long, essentially harping on how communication is key. I'm just lost, you know, i dont really know how to do this, i've never done it before. not that we are professionals in communicating. I mean, sure i like to talk. A fact which probably not many knows. Given the right circumstances and mood, i can talk the cow into coming home or maybe talk my mum into insanity, but probably half the time i dont make sense, i'm just so random. but i like to talk about feelings! :) roses are red, violets are blue, i mean, like seriously. come talk mush to me. rudy, on the other hand, doesnt talk much. His blog, which contains all but SEVEN posts begrudgingly written because of a pestering girlfriend, would probably take another ten thousand years to resurrect. and they say, that at the end of the day, LDR is the ultimate test of your love. Those who can't swim get thrown into the sea and they either learn how to swim or drown. Felice @ 12:04 AM Monday, June 19, 2006 mood excited Ok i was just about doing keerling's meme halfway when i gave up. continue soon when the mood kicks okay? :D Anyway, i've been thinking about going travelling alone for quite some time now. wouldn't it be cool? to explore a place in the comfort of your own skin, where you dont need to worry about waking up on the wrong side of the bed and be at risk of pissing your travel buddies. Noone to please or accomodate, just me and myself. I could wander down the unfamiliar streets, talk to strangers, be in transit, wander at the unknowns, be lost, maybe be found again. I so totally dig the idea. Europe sounds cool but it's so far and expensive. I really should start thinking and planning about this, man. cos this is probably what i need. Felice @ 10:19 PM Sunday, June 18, 2006 listening to The Blower's Daughter by Damien Rice Ok so i've been gone for a while, not that it matters much. a few things to update: numero uno, my ed hardy shirt freaking got lost in the mail. i'm so upset i can burn down whichever post office committed the deed. so angry!!! I had so much faith in online shopping and now this. :( bought a pink -no its fuschia really (dammit, blogger colourbar does not have fuschia. cannot dramatize the effect with coloured fonts)- motorola razr! those who know me would know that i am so not a sucker for handphones. with all due respect to all those handphone nutheads (read: gideon), i just dont see the need to blow your pockets on a gadget whose value predictably does a bungee before you can even say "i love my expensive handphone". So i strolled into M1 and zoomed straight at the cheapest deals. My pink baby cost only 68 bucks. :) :) :) whatever la, can sms and call, good enough for me. A sudden jolt of realisation caused me to be struck by the fact that my Panasonic Lumix is pink too. And when i put my camera and handphone together they just look ridiculous. And i am not even a pinkette. It is so xiaxue-ish. disgusting. But anyhow, i wore my pink x:odus pump on saturday, and today in the midst of rushing out from my auntie's place and huff-puffing my way to cellgroup, i wore my pink slippers plus my fuschia-patterned chingay shirt. Just for the fun of it. They matched my new handphone so nicely! giggles like totally. flutters eyelids Ok, before i completely ruin my reputation, we have to move on. Rudy went on a mission trip to Tanjung Pinang today. So exciting! wished i could have gone, which i probably would have if i hadnt signed up for the myanmar community svc trip, which i eventually cancelled anyway. so wasted. And it's been barely 12 hours, but i caught a glimpse of how the next 2 years are gonna be like, with the two of us an ocean and an archipelago away. can't say that i look forward to it, but maybe a bit of space or change is good? Am having a bit of a mixed feeling now. It's a some kind of a "sad-how-now-maybe-its-good-oh-heck-lets-just-not-think-about-it-and-deal-with-it-when-the-time-comes" feeling. Felice @ 10:48 PM Wednesday, June 07, 2006 mood cheesed... I jolly well am sick and tired of super-duperly emotional fools with pea brains so small they only have enough intelligence to think about themselves and how every single one of the human population in the world has somehow failed them/broken their hearts/fly their aeroplane/killed their pet guppy/misplaced their 20 cents eraser/did not say hi on the road/forgotten to tell them (read: humour them) that they are the most gorgeous piece of shit ever existed. some kind souls should WAKE UP THEIR IDEA and drill into their coconut heads the fact that the solar system does not revolve around their bodies and that the dirt that falls off their skin is not the miracle cure for AIDS. (oh revelations!) all my life i stumble upon the path of sickening people who are a total waste of my time. 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