mood mellow

The past 2 weeks of exams had been a tough and literally hair-losing days. I've no idea what's with the hair loss but overall i just felt pooey. But whoever says that exams are easy right? Rudy had only 1 paper and he was done before i even started. So the past 3 weeks or so had been a period of minimal contact. Short phone conversations, zero dates, hardly even any lunch or dinner appointments, catching up, and it felt so out-of-touch. Of course other than the bday celebration and the day when he came down to pass me an "exam-kit" with lots of nibbles inside. :)

It is even more upsetting, knowing that the aussie trip is drawing so near, yet all these emotions just do not match. And it is scary in a way because it had only been 3 weeks. What is living apart from each other for 2 years gonna feel like? I'm not even sure if it is even sinking in, that hello it is like less than 2 months to go. and in the remaining time that we have left together, instead of spending some quality time together, here i am being so darn caught up in exams, not that i can help it obviously, and saying all the wrong things and doing all the wrong stuff.

Tomorrow is the day of last paper, and i am doing ANYTHING but studying. dont know how i'm gonna pull through this one, cos at this moment i am simply sadness personified.