mood miffed. by my screwed up body clock.
listening to the chinese song on keerling's blog!

yes. why am i still not sleeping? *chides self*
i honestly tried. was in bed at around 2.45am, tossed, turned, hugged my 3 pillows, wrapped my leg around my bolster, snuggled under my bed cover, wriggled out again after a while cos it was sweltering HOT, looked at the time on my hp, think about some things, tossed some more, looked at the darkness around me (so drama), turned some more,

and gave up.

and did i mention that having screwed up snoozing hours means having screwed up appetite as well? like what i mentioned, typical daily menu: breakfast no-no, early lunch, dinner, and then my stupid stomach will growl, when all the world has faded into slumber. like now.

and so, i crawled out of bed, went to the kitchen and fixed myself a quick macaroni salad (stolen macaroni) with the ham that suz donated to me when she moved out, and the herb-mayonaise i kept from lunch. GOD... i feel like such a pauper.

ok that didn't sound quite right. stolen macaroni. you see, it's this macaroni in the kitchen that's been lying around belonging to dont-know-who.
and living in hall, you know how people either steal any yummy or expensive food you put in the fridge despite labelling (like suz's Ben & Jerry's and our mango juice yonks ago), or they put their groceries in and promptly forget, leaving them there til they rot. literally. leaving the dirty job to me and suz for cleaning the stinky fridge out of the kindness of our hearts.
so if we observe any food that's been untouched for a while, we take.
they're better off in our tummy than rotting in the bin. Fair? of course.

now suz's left. so i dont think i'm gonna do the cleaning anymore lest i look like some garbage collector.

Anyways, so i have come to realise. that i've been too hooked onto the world wide web. for what purposes? beats me. bumming around, checking mails, school workbin, msn, and reading many many blogs which are pleasantly mind-stimulating and worth-reading.
and i've also come to conclude, that my laptop-hogging habit isn't as healthy as i would have desired it to be. makes me procrastinate on many things, compromise on some obligations, making things i do anything but perfect as i hoped it would be.
And anything less than perfect is mediocrity. I hate mediocrity. I loathe being stagnant. and i don't like half-past-sixes. Be it issues of life, spirituality, academics.

Everything shall be resolved. and then i will take one foot forward and start moving on as i should have done long ago.

So i'm gonna take a short sabbatical from the net. no more msn. won't blog much too. my laptop is going to the gallows (chio, sounds familiar?)
Geez. should have done this BEFORE exams started right? not midway. *snorts*
still need the laptop to watch webcast though. hmm...

bye-bye! =)