hooked on to: love light by Stereo Action Unlimited

Love this song! i think it's lounge music. am listening to it off somebody's blog. hee.
my mood have been rotten these two days, everything is just getting too much to handle. for a moment i rewinded back to my much younger days, when the only sensible thing to do when i was stressed was to cry. yes, imbecile i know. but now, i think i've just lost my tear glands altogether. what i felt was just pure suffocation, desire to break free, and anger for letting myself fall into such a sorry predicament.

i don't think rudy has seen me so stressed before, and i believe it was taxing and mind-draining altogether. i say having one grouchy girlfriend like yours truly is no joke. and armed with a runny nose, an excruciating toothache, a headache that won't go and an injured nerve at the sole of my foot, i simply lost all emotions and rationale thinking. talking was such a chore and walking was literally such a pain. all i wanted to do was grab my passport, buy an air ticket and fly away somewhere. sleeping came close second.

i feel bad because darling has been so patient. and i felt rotten because i behaved like a total pain. and as though that wasn't enough, now he had to share some of my flu germs as well. with submissions and all coming up. won't you love to hate me just by reading this?

CM1161 is stressing me up so bad, i would probably remember professor J.S. for as long as i live. For his dignity's sake i shall keep his name confidential. but really.. i've never encountered any one lecturer whose lectures are so utterly unhelpful, tests were always full with confusions, group assignments were never gone through (already he doesn't conduct tutorials), and expect us to grow a second brain overnight and sit for exams. which is in all but 4 weeks and i honestly know jackshit about everything. drawing salary for absolutely unjustified purposes.
felt so sick today and had giddy spells during sermon this afternoon. wanted to conk quite bad.

anyways, on to a lighter note, rudy came over after his little cousin's bday celebration in the evening and sneaked over heaps of food for our dinner. 8 KFC chicken wings, 7 blueberry muffins, 2 sticks of chocolate marshmallows and 2 large mashed potatoes. and he ran off without even finishing them! so now i've got 5 wings, 3 muffins (do the math. *sheepish grin*), 1 marshmallow and 1 mashed potatoes. gave a few wings to jianwei since he happened to pop by and was hungry.

gideon where are youuuu when i need youuuuuuu?????