mood: disappointed
hooked on to: Seven years by Norah Jones

and the lazy blogger returns.
i feel rather detached from the hustle bustle going on around me cos the traffic of thoughts hogging my mind has kept me occupied enough. Stella is right. there is something wrong with us. we just want to nua. haha.

All those talks about friends drifting apart, hall politics and such, the emotional outpour of grievances & disappointments. News of chummy budies who became all but mere acquaintances.. They hardy faze me. I find within myself not the slightest stir or jolt of outrage or pity. sometimes i wonder why am i so cold. People who hardly know me think that i'm just some snob who's too high-up-there to socialise. Sadly that impression would probably stuck til the day they die. Afterall if it takes so much effort i guess they'd rather not start.

Chips of broken friendships, remnants of lost buddies, without the intention of making this entry sound too suicidal, i guess all those had worn me out. Cracked, reassembled, sellotaped, haphazardly put together before breaking again. People who brought my hopes so high, only to mercilessly yank it down again. Said they'd be there but couldn't be found. Said they'll be behind you but so far behind they were indeed.
The daily devotion by Pst Kong really spoke out what had been lingering in my mind.

Disappointment is never based on what you find, but upon what you expect to find.

nostalgia aside, i bought a pair of earrings today. yes you guessed it, school bazaar.
there's another one at central library and i totally fell in love with the swarovski big glassy crystal earrings. price is a bit steep though. $20-25. so i had to wince and walk away.

had cm1161 test which was total crap. the questions looked somewhat unprofessional. Tonnes of errors, and it seemed more like a guessing game more than a knowledge based assessment.
And the worst part is, it's 15% of the overall. somebody just kill the professor please.

i'm tired.


tired.


tired.


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