mood: hit with reality.
hooked on to: now and forever by Richard Marx.

ok that's it. no more blogging starting tomorrow.

fine. lets be a little more realistic. no more blogging often starting tomorrow.

but then again, lets take a step further by admitting that resolutions dont always get done. inevitably and unfortunately.

i really gotta start settling down when it comes to school work. somehow i'm still trapped in the honeymoon period, dreamily wandering in lala land thinking that life after A levels is a bed of roses. throw in a couple of chocolates.
but apparently that's not the case. of course i know that too. but dont you just agree that knowledge is one thing, acknowledgement is a different realm altogether.
so i hereby declare that i'm gonna aspire to be a bespectacled mugger starting now.
err... i mean, after i finish blogging this.

but seriously, it was on that fateful day, being dead-tired from sleeping so little for the past week thanks to hall activities, literally zombie-ing into lecture theatres, falling asleep in my room & not remembering how on earth it happened, waking up when lab was supposed to be starting, scrambling all around science fac not knowing where the bloody lab was, that it struck me. i'm not serious enough about being in university. i dont want to be galivanting my way through freshman year and then crying out to God for help during exams. no more.
you may think it's silly to be saying all this so soon, but having gone through what i have, all i can say is that you decide how you wanna live your life.

anyway! on a lighter note, hmm. what did i do today..
totally skipped my 2 lectures today. one intended, another one unfortunately missed. got difference okay. went to meet my auntie who just came from indonesia. she's one of the most amazing woman i've ever met, eventhough i'm ashamed to say that i havent been showing as much love as i should, being so frequently placed at the receiving end of her affection.
it's sad to see someone you've grown up living with, withering away with age and illness. i must say that my health-freak trait is significantly thanks to her contribution.
i guess one of the things i fear the most is not cockroaches, stairs (surprise, surprise), or an F grade on my exam paper. it really is watching people i love dying.

so people, eat healthy okay..

okay.. that was supposed to be "on a lighter note". turned out it wasnt that light afterall.
on a lighter-er note! i met up with my other auntie today. the one who misses me. *wink*
it so happened that she was in town too so she asked me to lunch with her. apparently her new-found business has been turning out surprisingly well. so we were scouting for eateries in paragon & finally settled in spaggedies. i nearly hyper-ventilated when i saw the prices in the menu. but that was before she generously said that the meal was on her. yay!
had lasagna with ricotta cheese filling & tomato meat sauce and an oreo cheesecake for dessert. mannn.. the cheesecake was a killer. shall go there again hopefully soon. :)

earlier on, was strolling in wisma before meeting my auntie mentioned earlier in mt. E. got myself a pair of sandals. not feeling guilty abt this cos i jolly well need more shoes & sandals. we just never can get enough shoes, agree? guys need not apply.

went to buy some stationary too and i cant believe i took an hour to choose a stupid file. oh well, better believe it cos i am that fickle. welcome to my world.

ok if i dont stop here i can jolly well be blogging forever.
remember, resolutions, resolutions... -eurghh-
hopefully i can get enough work done tonight.