ello..
alamak.. i cant believe there was actually a time when i was hooked to blogging. why the sudden change u may ask? oh well everything in life is just a phase i guess. just like how i used to be head over heels in love with Breadtalk's moshi mushroom. haha. now.. moshi mushroom is so... mushroomy.
i cant wait to get my payyyy!! okay. actually, now that i'm getting my salary, i know what it means when people say that the getting paid part is actually not that big fat a deal afterall. and that by the time end of the month draws near, u're just looking forward to the paycheck for the practical reason that u have hardly anything left to spend anymore. haha.. SAD.
i used to be so envious that at least they get a few hundred bucks every month just like that.
BUT. funny things just happen when u get hold of money. somehow they just start disappearing & flying off to places you dont know. & all of a sudden u wonder how come u're broke again???!!
feel so bad that i havent had the time to meet up with this friend who's been asking for a time to meet up to pass me my bday pressie.
something is wrong with me, man. i'm getting unbelievably lazy to do a lot of things. it's like simply rushing around to get things done just because it's necessary, when i should be finding joy in those things that i do. okay! work work work.
Friday, April 30, 2004
Wednesday, April 28, 2004
The value of life, in a certain sense, is determined by the maturity of how we love. Of how we give & accept love.
Treasure what you have...
Time is too slow for those who wait,
too swift for those who fear,
too long for those who grief,
too short for those who rejoice.
But for those who love...
Time is eternity.
Let love be your greatest aim. :)
Treasure what you have...
Time is too slow for those who wait,
too swift for those who fear,
too long for those who grief,
too short for those who rejoice.
But for those who love...
Time is eternity.
Let love be your greatest aim. :)
Saturday, April 24, 2004
oh wow! so proud of myself, man..
woke up today at a little over 6.30 am. AM, mind you, not PM.
m-o-r-n-i-n-g.
sunrise, not sunset.
yeah. i think it's about time that i yank my body clock back to its original ticking speed.
cooked myself a packet of instant noodles. told ya none of my breakfast in the whole of my existence in s'pore have EVER been a good one. save a few. which is likewise too insignificant to be remembered anyway. haiii... wish me mummy is here to cook me stuff.
by the time i finished my not-so-fantastic noodles, i was more or less awake. in the groggy & "blur" kinda way. haha. took a shower, dressed up, & off i went to the.. ehem! Checkpoint & Immigration Authority of Singapore. wow. what an interesting place to be at huh.
so, more or less settled my student pass mess, except that i probably will need to come back again every once in a while til i get my official renewed pass. which will be after the NUS matriculation day in July. alamak..
arrived there at abt 9.20, settled whatever needed to be settled at abt 10 plus, and...
AND! that fella informed me that i gotta wait til 12.30 to collect my passport.
so! there i was, having 2 and a half hour to kill. thank God i had my bible. :)
kept me occupied for a good 1 half hour as i sat at the cafetaria waiting for my friggin' passport.
reached home 20 minutes ago. & for the first time in history no one is online!!
okay, there are two now.
cellgrp meeting at 5.. :D
gid cant make it again. hai..
"As you do not know the path of the wind, or how the body is formed in a mother's womb, so you cannot understand the work of God, the Maker of all things." __Eccl 11:5
i've stopped wondering why He chose to take away certain relationships in my life... :)
woke up today at a little over 6.30 am. AM, mind you, not PM.
m-o-r-n-i-n-g.
sunrise, not sunset.
yeah. i think it's about time that i yank my body clock back to its original ticking speed.
cooked myself a packet of instant noodles. told ya none of my breakfast in the whole of my existence in s'pore have EVER been a good one. save a few. which is likewise too insignificant to be remembered anyway. haiii... wish me mummy is here to cook me stuff.
by the time i finished my not-so-fantastic noodles, i was more or less awake. in the groggy & "blur" kinda way. haha. took a shower, dressed up, & off i went to the.. ehem! Checkpoint & Immigration Authority of Singapore. wow. what an interesting place to be at huh.
so, more or less settled my student pass mess, except that i probably will need to come back again every once in a while til i get my official renewed pass. which will be after the NUS matriculation day in July. alamak..
arrived there at abt 9.20, settled whatever needed to be settled at abt 10 plus, and...
AND! that fella informed me that i gotta wait til 12.30 to collect my passport.
so! there i was, having 2 and a half hour to kill. thank God i had my bible. :)
kept me occupied for a good 1 half hour as i sat at the cafetaria waiting for my friggin' passport.
reached home 20 minutes ago. & for the first time in history no one is online!!
okay, there are two now.
cellgrp meeting at 5.. :D
gid cant make it again. hai..
"As you do not know the path of the wind, or how the body is formed in a mother's womb, so you cannot understand the work of God, the Maker of all things." __Eccl 11:5
i've stopped wondering why He chose to take away certain relationships in my life... :)
Friday, April 23, 2004
pardon the lack of new updates lately..
been in one of my "stoned" moods nowadays. going to work, wandering alone, drowned in thoughts.
hahahaaa... will write sum more when bloggin mood kicks in again.
-__-
been in one of my "stoned" moods nowadays. going to work, wandering alone, drowned in thoughts.
hahahaaa... will write sum more when bloggin mood kicks in again.
-__-
Wednesday, April 21, 2004
Everything has it's time
To everything there is a season, A time for every purpose under heaven:
A time to be born, and a time to die.
A time to plant, and a time to pluck what is planted.
A time to kill, and a time to heal.
A time to break down, and a time to build up again.
A time to weep, and a time to laugh.
A time to mourn, and a time to dance.
A time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones.
A time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing.
A time to gain, and a time to lose.
A time to keep, and a time to throw away.
A time to tear, and a time to sew.
A time to keep silence, and a time to speak.
A time to love, and a time to hate.
A time of war, and a time to make peace.
__Ecclesiastes 3:1-8__
the old testament prophets are like poets, man.. the way they write many things is beautiful.
-reflect-
Monday, April 19, 2004
oh well... officially 19 years old. 19 yrs old on 19th april. (beautiful meh???) sounds OLD to me. hahaha!
my first bday greeting came from my best buddy exactly when the kitchen clock showed 10 seconds to midnight. boy, talk about accuracy. haha.
mum msged me half an hour later & i cried while i read her msg. okay, those who knows me are probably not wondering. i cry all the time anyway. i cry happy tears, i cry sad tears. i cried when i got my results, i cried at the airport many times, i cried when i miss someone dear.
but as i was saying, i guess it's okay to be overcome by your emotions. just dont live by them. :)
i've digressed..
my mum was so cute. she attempted to type my happy bday msg in those curly-wurly alphabets & she said she was trying to be artistic but ended up with a headache halfway through typing it. haha!
i love to see the way my mum types & reads smses cos it's just so amusing. she takes AGES to type. & cos she's a little long-sighted she always puts her hp 30cm in front of her face when she reads smses. & sometimes she takes some time to figure out what the shortforms stand for. hahaha! & she grumbles when i laugh at her!
anyway, yeah.. i cried cos as i was reading that simple sms, every word speaks so much of sincerity & love. it looked a little silly but i suspect she purposely stayed up late just to be one of the first to wish me happy bday. since she normally sleeps quite early & into my 2nd msg where i asked her how come she's still awake, she didnt reply anymore. i think she fell asleep. haha..
my mum is as imperfect as everyone can be. but i love her a lot. i wish i know what else to say here but the truth is right now i dont. it's just as simple as that.
oh well! in fact, not even mums, God created everyone beautiful. so are you. whoever you are. :)
*stretches*
took leave today.
this entry is gonna be edited. if i'm not too lazy i hope. :p
today was a great day.. and i got a revelation.
i need to be a better friend to many people.. i need to put in more effort to remember birthdays. people i never thought would remember my bday have been sending their well wishes & i'm feeling so rotten about it. sorry people.. i really am.. *determined*
and I NEED TO TAKE MEMORY PILLS. i'm getting the gideon syndrome. this is very bad. hahaha! no offense, gid. :D
but really! i'm shocked. very shocked.
was talking to e-ed just now & she was just casually saying that she saw me online yesterday. & u know what, i could remember NUTS about it. i said i couldnt remember talking to anyone online yesterday. she said that i talked to monica. she knows cos she talked to monica after i went off i think. AND I COULDNT REMEMBER AT ALL!!! i couldnt remember what i talked to her about yesterday!
and now that she's brought me back to earth, it's slowly coming back. in fact, i talked to briony & mike yesterday too. (right?)
oh my goodness...
and the worst part is, that's not it.
monica msged me today. i replied. she replied again. then everything went blank.
she was complaining online 5 minutes ago as to why i did not reply. and i was like, "HUH?! i thot i did?"
it was only after i checked my hp did i realise that i received her msg but promptly forgot abt it the moment i finished reading it. therefore i did not reply. in fact before i re-read it a few minutes ago i had a completely blank record of it in my mind.
God.. what is happening to me..
anyways, my mental conditions aside, i had a great day today.
fish & co is EVIL. the seafood platter! oh man, the seafood platter... i mean, the seafood platter is outrageous!!!! it's HUGE. it's monstrous. and we were so ignorant cos that enormous pan of dead & deliciously cooked sea creatures could have jolly well filled 3 stomachs but we still went to order another pan of fish & chips. as a result, we could not finish everything. i could just hear the leftover french fries crying out from the pan. actually i still wanna eat those.
nice.
khala went to esplanade for the first time after that place exist for 2 years. *faints*
hahahaaa..
thank you for your time.. :)
my first bday greeting came from my best buddy exactly when the kitchen clock showed 10 seconds to midnight. boy, talk about accuracy. haha.
mum msged me half an hour later & i cried while i read her msg. okay, those who knows me are probably not wondering. i cry all the time anyway. i cry happy tears, i cry sad tears. i cried when i got my results, i cried at the airport many times, i cried when i miss someone dear.
but as i was saying, i guess it's okay to be overcome by your emotions. just dont live by them. :)
i've digressed..
my mum was so cute. she attempted to type my happy bday msg in those curly-wurly alphabets & she said she was trying to be artistic but ended up with a headache halfway through typing it. haha!
i love to see the way my mum types & reads smses cos it's just so amusing. she takes AGES to type. & cos she's a little long-sighted she always puts her hp 30cm in front of her face when she reads smses. & sometimes she takes some time to figure out what the shortforms stand for. hahaha! & she grumbles when i laugh at her!
anyway, yeah.. i cried cos as i was reading that simple sms, every word speaks so much of sincerity & love. it looked a little silly but i suspect she purposely stayed up late just to be one of the first to wish me happy bday. since she normally sleeps quite early & into my 2nd msg where i asked her how come she's still awake, she didnt reply anymore. i think she fell asleep. haha..
my mum is as imperfect as everyone can be. but i love her a lot. i wish i know what else to say here but the truth is right now i dont. it's just as simple as that.
oh well! in fact, not even mums, God created everyone beautiful. so are you. whoever you are. :)
*stretches*
took leave today.
today was a great day.. and i got a revelation.
i need to be a better friend to many people.. i need to put in more effort to remember birthdays. people i never thought would remember my bday have been sending their well wishes & i'm feeling so rotten about it. sorry people.. i really am.. *determined*
and I NEED TO TAKE MEMORY PILLS. i'm getting the gideon syndrome. this is very bad. hahaha! no offense, gid. :D
but really! i'm shocked. very shocked.
was talking to e-ed just now & she was just casually saying that she saw me online yesterday. & u know what, i could remember NUTS about it. i said i couldnt remember talking to anyone online yesterday. she said that i talked to monica. she knows cos she talked to monica after i went off i think. AND I COULDNT REMEMBER AT ALL!!! i couldnt remember what i talked to her about yesterday!
and now that she's brought me back to earth, it's slowly coming back. in fact, i talked to briony & mike yesterday too. (right?)
oh my goodness...
and the worst part is, that's not it.
monica msged me today. i replied. she replied again. then everything went blank.
she was complaining online 5 minutes ago as to why i did not reply. and i was like, "HUH?! i thot i did?"
it was only after i checked my hp did i realise that i received her msg but promptly forgot abt it the moment i finished reading it. therefore i did not reply. in fact before i re-read it a few minutes ago i had a completely blank record of it in my mind.
God.. what is happening to me..
anyways, my mental conditions aside, i had a great day today.
fish & co is EVIL. the seafood platter! oh man, the seafood platter... i mean, the seafood platter is outrageous!!!! it's HUGE. it's monstrous. and we were so ignorant cos that enormous pan of dead & deliciously cooked sea creatures could have jolly well filled 3 stomachs but we still went to order another pan of fish & chips. as a result, we could not finish everything. i could just hear the leftover french fries crying out from the pan. actually i still wanna eat those.
nice.
khala went to esplanade for the first time after that place exist for 2 years. *faints*
hahahaaa..
thank you for your time.. :)
Friday, April 16, 2004
now i own 2 blogs. haha. another one is a shared property of my few crazy friends who are currently all over the world. oh geez, seriously. all over the world. which may be good actually. less havoc created. too volatile especially when put together & in near proximity. haha!
check out one of the links. u might get lost though. *wink*
Do you have a little time.
by: Dido
Album: Life for rent
If you're feeling low and lost today
You're probably doing too much again
You spend all your hours just rushing around
Do you have a little time
Do you have a little time for me?
Slow down my love you're confusing me
If you're feeling stressed just try calling
You spend your time waiting for anyone to see
Do you have a little time
Do you have a little time for me?
If you should stop for a while
You will find me standing by
Over here at the side of your life
I'd like to hold you still, remind you of all you've missed
If you have a little time
If you have a little time that is
Why do you still run when you could walk with me
Life will pass you by when you move as quickly
What can you see when you're spinning around
Do you have a little time
Do you have a little time for me
If you should stop for a while
You will find me standing by
Over here at the side of your life
I like to hold you still, remind you of all you've missed
If you have a little time
If you have a little time that is
If you let me listen I'll make you feel clear
You spend your time waiting for anyone to see
If you should stop for a while
You will find me standing by
Over here at the side of your life
I'd like to hold you still, remind you of all you've missed
If you have a little time
If you have a little time that is
If you should stop for a while
You will find me standing by
Over here at the side of your life
I'd like to hold you still, remind you of all you've missed
If you have a little time
If you have a little time that is
this is such a sad song...
oh man.. now that my lil sister is at the other side of the globe once again, i think i gotta buy her cd. just only realised that i'm in love with her. very addictive. mmm... :)
my little sis... hahaaa..
check out one of the links. u might get lost though. *wink*
Do you have a little time.
by: Dido
Album: Life for rent
If you're feeling low and lost today
You're probably doing too much again
You spend all your hours just rushing around
Do you have a little time
Do you have a little time for me?
Slow down my love you're confusing me
If you're feeling stressed just try calling
You spend your time waiting for anyone to see
Do you have a little time
Do you have a little time for me?
If you should stop for a while
You will find me standing by
Over here at the side of your life
I'd like to hold you still, remind you of all you've missed
If you have a little time
If you have a little time that is
Why do you still run when you could walk with me
Life will pass you by when you move as quickly
What can you see when you're spinning around
Do you have a little time
Do you have a little time for me
If you should stop for a while
You will find me standing by
Over here at the side of your life
I like to hold you still, remind you of all you've missed
If you have a little time
If you have a little time that is
If you let me listen I'll make you feel clear
You spend your time waiting for anyone to see
If you should stop for a while
You will find me standing by
Over here at the side of your life
I'd like to hold you still, remind you of all you've missed
If you have a little time
If you have a little time that is
If you should stop for a while
You will find me standing by
Over here at the side of your life
I'd like to hold you still, remind you of all you've missed
If you have a little time
If you have a little time that is
this is such a sad song...
oh man.. now that my lil sister is at the other side of the globe once again, i think i gotta buy her cd. just only realised that i'm in love with her. very addictive. mmm... :)
my little sis... hahaaa..
Thursday, April 15, 2004
UOB is so screwed. why do they even have internet banking if there isnt anything you can click to log in? -_-
gotta pay my NUS deposit. bleargh.
great. now that i've found the log in button, the page cannot be displayed. internet banking my foot. i hate internet. ironically makes your life more complicated. yet you cant seem to get yourself away from it.
hmm.. i've realised, it's not that the blogging craze is fading. it's just that there's nothing to blog about. life's been pretty boring nowadays.
i wanna go to Pasir ris park to catch guppies!!!
i realised yesterday that this empty miserable fish tank in the kitchen had little fishes swimming in it. *wheee!* my auntie caught them a few days ago apparently.
got excited for a pathetic reason i know.
but anyway, i got a little late for work cos i was so engrossed in helping the maid change the water in the tank & catching the guppies with those small little nets. haha.
ok i know i sound very dumb now.
i wanna go pasir ris..
gotta pay my NUS deposit. bleargh.
great. now that i've found the log in button, the page cannot be displayed. internet banking my foot. i hate internet. ironically makes your life more complicated. yet you cant seem to get yourself away from it.
hmm.. i've realised, it's not that the blogging craze is fading. it's just that there's nothing to blog about. life's been pretty boring nowadays.
i wanna go to Pasir ris park to catch guppies!!!
i realised yesterday that this empty miserable fish tank in the kitchen had little fishes swimming in it. *wheee!* my auntie caught them a few days ago apparently.
got excited for a pathetic reason i know.
but anyway, i got a little late for work cos i was so engrossed in helping the maid change the water in the tank & catching the guppies with those small little nets. haha.
ok i know i sound very dumb now.
i wanna go pasir ris..
Wednesday, April 14, 2004
bloggin craze is starting to fade..
just got this huge envelope from NUS yesterday. i got my course! man, there are mountains of admin stuff & paperworks to settle & send. deadlines, deadlines..
Got a letter from Nanyang JC too. invitation to prize giving ceremony on College day. haha. oh well, when moments like these come i just so envy those of you who see your parents everyday. pls cherish them while you can, eventhough they can be a pain in the neck sometimes. yeah.
hmmm.. i cant think of how to write whatever is in my mind. haha.
see the heading above. oh well... so i guess that's all for now.
i'm hungry and there's nothing to eat.
just got this huge envelope from NUS yesterday. i got my course! man, there are mountains of admin stuff & paperworks to settle & send. deadlines, deadlines..
Got a letter from Nanyang JC too. invitation to prize giving ceremony on College day. haha. oh well, when moments like these come i just so envy those of you who see your parents everyday. pls cherish them while you can, eventhough they can be a pain in the neck sometimes. yeah.
hmmm.. i cant think of how to write whatever is in my mind. haha.
see the heading above. oh well... so i guess that's all for now.
i'm hungry and there's nothing to eat.
Monday, April 12, 2004
had a long sleep last night! pigged from 10.30 pm til 9am. but somehow when i woke up my eyes looked extremely puffy & swollen. yikes.
forgot to mention that grandmother went holidaying to thailand on thursday night. said would come back today.
i didn't know that today could actually mean 3am in the morning.
woke up to see her rummaging her suitcase in the dark at that ungodly hour and i tell you! i thought i was seeing ghost.
thank God i didnt scream my lungs out. cos upon 5 seconds of seeing her, the disappointment immediately settled in.
haha. okay, it isnt as bad as u think, alright.
it's just that i always cherish those times when she's away cos that's when i can have the room all to myself & have undistracted moments. u know one of those when you just want to lock yourself in your room & have quiet times without someone nagging at you at such regular intervals.
and the disappointment lies in the fact that i didnt have much chance to make use of those times since this weekend has been crazily packed & spent mostly outside. SIGH.
hmmm.. maybe i should suggest Philippines.
or China??
forgot to mention that grandmother went holidaying to thailand on thursday night. said would come back today.
i didn't know that today could actually mean 3am in the morning.
woke up to see her rummaging her suitcase in the dark at that ungodly hour and i tell you! i thought i was seeing ghost.
thank God i didnt scream my lungs out. cos upon 5 seconds of seeing her, the disappointment immediately settled in.
haha. okay, it isnt as bad as u think, alright.
it's just that i always cherish those times when she's away cos that's when i can have the room all to myself & have undistracted moments. u know one of those when you just want to lock yourself in your room & have quiet times without someone nagging at you at such regular intervals.
and the disappointment lies in the fact that i didnt have much chance to make use of those times since this weekend has been crazily packed & spent mostly outside. SIGH.
hmmm.. maybe i should suggest Philippines.
or China??
i need help to sort out my archives. bad. it's weird & in a mess.
tam, rescue me soon. hahaa.
tam, rescue me soon. hahaa.
Sunday, April 11, 2004
it's been a long, long, long, long weekend. quite a sleepless one too.
was talking to gid yesterday. cant remember the last time we actually talked on the phone for more than 5 minutes. oh no what kind of friend have i been? haha.
went for the 2nd easter svc this morning, afterwhich some of us went to town. most of them wanted to watch hellboy. which i didnt want to watch. lack-a-moolah. but anyway apparently only the guys liked the show. briony made hilarious comments after it ended which tickled me to bits. the freaks really looked like freaks. HAHAHA.
wanted to go back once the movie started. but ended up going window shopping with huiru despite my nearly-breaking legs. from 3.30 up til 7!!!! got a weakness for window-shopping. which is bad.
bought the things we needed to buy. finally! and me & huiru made a pact NOT to let each other buy anything which will make us more broke as we already are. and we made it, man. yay.
huiru & i are such suckers for zara. i mean there were so many things to seeeee! we were like little girls lost in a candy shop. not that the clothes there are sickeningly irresistible but that one beside wheelock place was really huge & it has some really nice tops. not mentioning the fact that we can bring tonnes of clothes to the fitting room instead of the usual 3. which is the whole point. hahaaa..
huiru tried on this brown tee which actually looked quite good on her. nice cut. but it has cheesy wordings in the front which reads "Pleased to meet you!" *diaos*
hahaha!! it was so cheap! $12.90! and huiru went mad! haha. *takes a deep breath* but in the end guilt got the better of her.
we left zara empty-handed. yay!
so i reached home at nearly 8. thought to myself i'll just take a quick shower & drop dead onto my bed. but guess what. i think it isnt gonna happen. why? i dont know. body clock does funny things and boy, can they make you mad.
anyway, uncle wanna use the comp. gotta cut short. edit again nxt time. ha.
today's svc was fantastic! made a few new friends! :)
yesterday was both good & bad. but isn't that the most beautiful thing about life? that out of every bad thing there's always something good. simply love life.. :)
akh..resume nxt time! uncle's gonna yell soon.
Emmanuel__ Hillsongs.
Together in this place of worship
Your greatness we proclaim
We stand as one in giving You
All glory and acclaim
To You our hearts are open
To You our hands we raise
Come take the place of honour in our lives
Emmanuel
Our God is with us
Prince of Peace Mighty One
The Ever-living God
See the praises of our Saviour
Rise to open skies
With the dawning of redemption
Your glory will aries
For You alone are worthy
Here in Zion you are praised
Our Lord and King forever
You will reign
suddenly found myself humming to this tune. just found the lyrics. beautiful. :)
was talking to gid yesterday. cant remember the last time we actually talked on the phone for more than 5 minutes. oh no what kind of friend have i been? haha.
went for the 2nd easter svc this morning, afterwhich some of us went to town. most of them wanted to watch hellboy. which i didnt want to watch. lack-a-moolah. but anyway apparently only the guys liked the show. briony made hilarious comments after it ended which tickled me to bits. the freaks really looked like freaks. HAHAHA.
wanted to go back once the movie started. but ended up going window shopping with huiru despite my nearly-breaking legs. from 3.30 up til 7!!!! got a weakness for window-shopping. which is bad.
bought the things we needed to buy. finally! and me & huiru made a pact NOT to let each other buy anything which will make us more broke as we already are. and we made it, man. yay.
huiru & i are such suckers for zara. i mean there were so many things to seeeee! we were like little girls lost in a candy shop. not that the clothes there are sickeningly irresistible but that one beside wheelock place was really huge & it has some really nice tops. not mentioning the fact that we can bring tonnes of clothes to the fitting room instead of the usual 3. which is the whole point. hahaaa..
huiru tried on this brown tee which actually looked quite good on her. nice cut. but it has cheesy wordings in the front which reads "Pleased to meet you!" *diaos*
hahaha!! it was so cheap! $12.90! and huiru went mad! haha. *takes a deep breath* but in the end guilt got the better of her.
we left zara empty-handed. yay!
so i reached home at nearly 8. thought to myself i'll just take a quick shower & drop dead onto my bed. but guess what. i think it isnt gonna happen. why? i dont know. body clock does funny things and boy, can they make you mad.
anyway, uncle wanna use the comp. gotta cut short. edit again nxt time. ha.
today's svc was fantastic! made a few new friends! :)
yesterday was both good & bad. but isn't that the most beautiful thing about life? that out of every bad thing there's always something good. simply love life.. :)
akh..resume nxt time! uncle's gonna yell soon.
Emmanuel__ Hillsongs.
Together in this place of worship
Your greatness we proclaim
We stand as one in giving You
All glory and acclaim
To You our hearts are open
To You our hands we raise
Come take the place of honour in our lives
Emmanuel
Our God is with us
Prince of Peace Mighty One
The Ever-living God
See the praises of our Saviour
Rise to open skies
With the dawning of redemption
Your glory will aries
For You alone are worthy
Here in Zion you are praised
Our Lord and King forever
You will reign
suddenly found myself humming to this tune. just found the lyrics. beautiful. :)
i'm DEAD TIRED.
donated blood in the morning. a little dizzy. neary fell sideways during worship. haha!
spent afternoon helping out to wrap the easter eggs. ate one in the process.
went for the easter svc in the evening. fantastic.
walked from kallang mrt to indoor stadium. to and fro. lots of blisters.
gonna get my 3 hrs sleep before meeting gid tmr for sunrise svc. (!!) hope got train.
i'm zonked out. thus the incomplete sentences.
nights people.. :)
tmr is a brand new day!
donated blood in the morning. a little dizzy. neary fell sideways during worship. haha!
spent afternoon helping out to wrap the easter eggs. ate one in the process.
went for the easter svc in the evening. fantastic.
walked from kallang mrt to indoor stadium. to and fro. lots of blisters.
gonna get my 3 hrs sleep before meeting gid tmr for sunrise svc. (!!) hope got train.
i'm zonked out. thus the incomplete sentences.
nights people.. :)
tmr is a brand new day!
Friday, April 09, 2004
oh goodness! this is the THIRD time i've blogged today. today= the last 24 hrs. this is ridiculous. but i am glued to the computer i cannot get away.
been in a particularly melancholic mood today. the rainy weather made everything seems even more somber. a tad gloomy.
ah... i wish...
anyway, my relatives at home brought back a feast today. wohoaaa..
let me tell you what i had.
black pepper crab, curry fish head, herbal chicken and a plate of vegetables.
that was like one of the most extravagant dinner i've had in this house for the past..erm..cant remember.
so i asked auntie, "why the feast?"
she replied, "to celebrate how our Saviour died for us."
that point was correct. but there was something incorrect about her. the way she said it was almost like a joke. which to me, was the saddest thing of all.
it's just like christmas, how ridiculous it is that people celebrate christmas without knowing who christmas is celebrated for?
people go for all the lights & parties that come along with christmas. presents, cards, nice christmas trees & the fun crowds in town.
then, how ridiculous it is also, to be able to laughingly proclaim that they are celebrating good friday, merrily buying nice foods yet seemingly missing out on the single most important fact, that on this very day 2000 years ago, Jesus died for you and I. He died so that we may have a relationship with the living God.
He went through 12 hours of such extreme pain & rejection, before eventually dying on the cross, for the very people who are, at this moment, sitting & laughing at the comfort of their homes, pleased that today gave them one day off work or school.
i'm so looking forward to the easter svc tomorrow. it's gonna be a life-changing evening. :)
been in a particularly melancholic mood today. the rainy weather made everything seems even more somber. a tad gloomy.
ah... i wish...
anyway, my relatives at home brought back a feast today. wohoaaa..
let me tell you what i had.
black pepper crab, curry fish head, herbal chicken and a plate of vegetables.
that was like one of the most extravagant dinner i've had in this house for the past..erm..cant remember.
so i asked auntie, "why the feast?"
she replied, "to celebrate how our Saviour died for us."
that point was correct. but there was something incorrect about her. the way she said it was almost like a joke. which to me, was the saddest thing of all.
it's just like christmas, how ridiculous it is that people celebrate christmas without knowing who christmas is celebrated for?
people go for all the lights & parties that come along with christmas. presents, cards, nice christmas trees & the fun crowds in town.
then, how ridiculous it is also, to be able to laughingly proclaim that they are celebrating good friday, merrily buying nice foods yet seemingly missing out on the single most important fact, that on this very day 2000 years ago, Jesus died for you and I. He died so that we may have a relationship with the living God.
He went through 12 hours of such extreme pain & rejection, before eventually dying on the cross, for the very people who are, at this moment, sitting & laughing at the comfort of their homes, pleased that today gave them one day off work or school.
i'm so looking forward to the easter svc tomorrow. it's gonna be a life-changing evening. :)
back from work... may go to a friend's granny's wake later on. waiting for gid to call.
tomorrow! going for blood donation in the morning, easter svc at s'pore indoor stadium in the evening. busy busy day.
blogging has proven to be quite a form of release these past few days. which is good. haha. thinking of changing my template very soon. u know me. i get bored with things quite fast. certain things. therefore leading to the fact that i can never get those huge 200ml edt cos i'll get sick of the smell after using up not even half of it. serious! even 100ml can be too much.
and therefore, the cK one in my cupboard has been left abandoned for quite a while. eurgh..
i just thought of my friends. those i've met in the course of my life.. okay. i guess in this case, the last 6 years of my life in s'pore since the ones before that period are really as gone as gone can be. :D
thanks for all those times you thought of me, thanks for those times you showed your love. thanks for bearing with my imperfections, and thanks for living with my flaws.
thanks for those times you lifted me higher and also when you good-naturedly brought me down. thanks for all the small little gestures that have meant so much.
i guess when life gets busy, we're all guilty of taking each other for granted. sometimes i forget to ask how you are doing, i pass by the chance to say hello. but just want you to know, that despite all the unsent messages, the unsaid thank yous and the intentions, i thought of you.
even to some who may never get the chance to read this, or even those i've lost altogether, thank you for giving a part of your life. and for once being a part of mine.
this also goes out to those i still am seeing every now and then. :)
i guess i'm not a perfect person. i may not know your every ups and downs, and at times i'm too apprehensive to ask. afraid.
will ... mind me asking this & that?
maybe in my feeble attempt to give my friends their personal space, i've missed out bridging the ties a little closer. what should i do?
but through all my imperfections, i think of you very often. i wish you are well. i hope you are well taken care of, and i pray that you are happy.
just know that when all else fails, i say with my sincerest heart, i'll still be standing here. i love you all. :)
tomorrow! going for blood donation in the morning, easter svc at s'pore indoor stadium in the evening. busy busy day.
blogging has proven to be quite a form of release these past few days. which is good. haha. thinking of changing my template very soon. u know me. i get bored with things quite fast. certain things. therefore leading to the fact that i can never get those huge 200ml edt cos i'll get sick of the smell after using up not even half of it. serious! even 100ml can be too much.
and therefore, the cK one in my cupboard has been left abandoned for quite a while. eurgh..
ode to my friends..
i just thought of my friends. those i've met in the course of my life.. okay. i guess in this case, the last 6 years of my life in s'pore since the ones before that period are really as gone as gone can be. :D
thanks for all those times you thought of me, thanks for those times you showed your love. thanks for bearing with my imperfections, and thanks for living with my flaws.
thanks for those times you lifted me higher and also when you good-naturedly brought me down. thanks for all the small little gestures that have meant so much.
i guess when life gets busy, we're all guilty of taking each other for granted. sometimes i forget to ask how you are doing, i pass by the chance to say hello. but just want you to know, that despite all the unsent messages, the unsaid thank yous and the intentions, i thought of you.
even to some who may never get the chance to read this, or even those i've lost altogether, thank you for giving a part of your life. and for once being a part of mine.
this also goes out to those i still am seeing every now and then. :)
i guess i'm not a perfect person. i may not know your every ups and downs, and at times i'm too apprehensive to ask. afraid.
will ... mind me asking this & that?
maybe in my feeble attempt to give my friends their personal space, i've missed out bridging the ties a little closer. what should i do?
but through all my imperfections, i think of you very often. i wish you are well. i hope you are well taken care of, and i pray that you are happy.
just know that when all else fails, i say with my sincerest heart, i'll still be standing here. i love you all. :)
the tuition centre opens on Good Friday. oh God...
i think my employer loves his job too much. seriously. of course, credits must also be given to those inconsiderate imps & also the parents who would "innocently" ask
"uhh..just wondering ah.. are u open this friday??"
to which he would answer..
"umm.. okay lah. can lah. what time u wanna come?"
hai.. he could have just said "no, i want to take a break." correct or not..
therefore, i would also be there to help out on this Good friday. haha. not that i'm complaining though.. more money to earn. since i've got absolutely nuts to do anyway.
singapore is getting friggin' boring. but then again i guess that statement should not apply. it was just a momentary exclamation of boredom. the correct theory lies in the fact that the most boring place becomes exciting when you're with people you enjoy being with. yup. cant agree more. so why am i bored??? to which i'll answer my own question by saying that, perhaps cos i've spent 3/4 of my time nowadays with papers, glue & scissors.
yes. those darned assessment books.
anyway, met up with monica yesterday night after work. apparently this poor girl is nearly out of job now. haha. funny how we trade places huh. ;)
so yeah.. wanted to buy this waaaaaaay overdue gift. BUT. monica's prophesy came to pass. i left orchard empty handed. oh no how.
yeah.. had dinner at Scotts food court. we took unbelievably long to decide what food to buy. & after i finally decided on this boring-looking tomyam noodle (okay, tomyam again.. & bytheway, i didnt know it was so "boring-looking" until i actually paid for it okay..), i couldnt eat my food in bliss cos all the while i was too agitated by this particular issue me & monica was discussing. hrmpf.
oh boy.. did i get agitated. interesting statement from monica being that she's amused by how i react when i'm agitated. haha. & she wishes to see more of it. eh!
oh well.. as i've said, i do not hate people. hate is such a strong word. hate hurts the bearer more than the hated. hate is..well..an unnecessary burden.
i need to go swimming. havent had time to go since i started working. but well. priorities, priorities. one of these days. yes. *half-hearted proclamation*
was talking to fiona on the phone yesterday night. for an hour. haha. funny girl.. :) good that it wasnt an uncomfortable conversation considering that i've known her for only a day.
hmm.. am now deeply considering whether or not to go back to indonesia end of this month.. gotta renew my student pass first. sheesh. then gotta check whether i get that fiscal exemption. troublesome. anyway, yeah.. since my 2 long lost friends will be in jakarta.. kinda want to meet them. :)
& nothing much happening in s'pore anyway.
SIGH. my birthday is coming. oeis. dont get me wrong okay.. i'm not hinting anything here. just lamenting on the fact that i'm getting older.. (nooo!) wonder why people are so excited about birthdays.. ok.. not that i hate birthdays. i like the things that come along with birthdays. haha. hypocrisy i know. as in the fact that it's much celebrated as an occasion of love, of remembering past achievements, be it in relationships etc, and also of looking back & realising how far you've climbed. to me, birthdays are occasions to tell people how much you love them.
and honestly, i look forward to bday cards so much more than the presents. :)
oh no! ok i'm SO not promoting my birthday, okay. these are just my thoughts. mine and only mine. do not take these as hints cos they are not. haha.
i have digressed..
but yeah.. i DETEST. absolutely DISLIKE the symbolic of birthdays. *wails*
was talking to eed the other day on msn. hahaha! it's true isnt it. this year u'll be saying, i want to stay 19 forever. maybe next year u'll be saying i want to stay 20 forever.
and voila! before you know it, you'll be married with a dozen kids not mentioning the wrinkles etc. THEN you'll be saying i wish i can stay 30 forever.
ok. i'm getting extremely freaked. next!!
aiyah.. gotta go off to work earlier today.. 12-4.. work, work,work..
i can get insecure of people's love. but i can never get insecure of His love. i can doubt anyone. anyone. anyone. but i can never doubt the Heavenly Father. because His love is boundless. and He has proven Himself faithful. and i know He'll love me til the end. :)
Happy Good Friday to all..
i think my employer loves his job too much. seriously. of course, credits must also be given to those inconsiderate imps & also the parents who would "innocently" ask
"uhh..just wondering ah.. are u open this friday??"
to which he would answer..
"umm.. okay lah. can lah. what time u wanna come?"
hai.. he could have just said "no, i want to take a break." correct or not..
therefore, i would also be there to help out on this Good friday. haha. not that i'm complaining though.. more money to earn. since i've got absolutely nuts to do anyway.
singapore is getting friggin' boring. but then again i guess that statement should not apply. it was just a momentary exclamation of boredom. the correct theory lies in the fact that the most boring place becomes exciting when you're with people you enjoy being with. yup. cant agree more. so why am i bored??? to which i'll answer my own question by saying that, perhaps cos i've spent 3/4 of my time nowadays with papers, glue & scissors.
yes. those darned assessment books.
anyway, met up with monica yesterday night after work. apparently this poor girl is nearly out of job now. haha. funny how we trade places huh. ;)
so yeah.. wanted to buy this waaaaaaay overdue gift. BUT. monica's prophesy came to pass. i left orchard empty handed. oh no how.
yeah.. had dinner at Scotts food court. we took unbelievably long to decide what food to buy. & after i finally decided on this boring-looking tomyam noodle (okay, tomyam again.. & bytheway, i didnt know it was so "boring-looking" until i actually paid for it okay..), i couldnt eat my food in bliss cos all the while i was too agitated by this particular issue me & monica was discussing. hrmpf.
oh boy.. did i get agitated. interesting statement from monica being that she's amused by how i react when i'm agitated. haha. & she wishes to see more of it. eh!
oh well.. as i've said, i do not hate people. hate is such a strong word. hate hurts the bearer more than the hated. hate is..well..an unnecessary burden.
i need to go swimming. havent had time to go since i started working. but well. priorities, priorities. one of these days. yes. *half-hearted proclamation*
was talking to fiona on the phone yesterday night. for an hour. haha. funny girl.. :) good that it wasnt an uncomfortable conversation considering that i've known her for only a day.
hmm.. am now deeply considering whether or not to go back to indonesia end of this month.. gotta renew my student pass first. sheesh. then gotta check whether i get that fiscal exemption. troublesome. anyway, yeah.. since my 2 long lost friends will be in jakarta.. kinda want to meet them. :)
& nothing much happening in s'pore anyway.
SIGH. my birthday is coming. oeis. dont get me wrong okay.. i'm not hinting anything here. just lamenting on the fact that i'm getting older.. (nooo!) wonder why people are so excited about birthdays.. ok.. not that i hate birthdays. i like the things that come along with birthdays. haha. hypocrisy i know. as in the fact that it's much celebrated as an occasion of love, of remembering past achievements, be it in relationships etc, and also of looking back & realising how far you've climbed. to me, birthdays are occasions to tell people how much you love them.
and honestly, i look forward to bday cards so much more than the presents. :)
oh no! ok i'm SO not promoting my birthday, okay. these are just my thoughts. mine and only mine. do not take these as hints cos they are not. haha.
i have digressed..
but yeah.. i DETEST. absolutely DISLIKE the symbolic of birthdays. *wails*
was talking to eed the other day on msn. hahaha! it's true isnt it. this year u'll be saying, i want to stay 19 forever. maybe next year u'll be saying i want to stay 20 forever.
and voila! before you know it, you'll be married with a dozen kids not mentioning the wrinkles etc. THEN you'll be saying i wish i can stay 30 forever.
ok. i'm getting extremely freaked. next!!
aiyah.. gotta go off to work earlier today.. 12-4.. work, work,work..
i can get insecure of people's love. but i can never get insecure of His love. i can doubt anyone. anyone. anyone. but i can never doubt the Heavenly Father. because His love is boundless. and He has proven Himself faithful. and i know He'll love me til the end. :)
Happy Good Friday to all..
Thursday, April 08, 2004
never be satisfied with temporary happiness, with things which give you momentary satisfaction. things which give you something less than eternal.
new clothes which look good on you. if only for a while. new shoes which give the way you walk that extra bounce. if only for a while. new handphone or PDA which give you that sense of power and control. if only for a while.
even dear friends you thought may be yours forever. sadly. which may only be for a while.
have you ever thought what would be left of you, when all these pass away?
lift up your eyes & look within your soul.
do you truly love your life?
lets not embrace life with that cynicism we've all inevitably succumbed to. amidst disappointments from loved ones, friends, or even that someone you thought is forever yours to keep.. have you found that answer you thought would give your life something worthwhile to live for?
Why do you spend money for what is not bread, and your wages for what does not satisfy? Listen carefully to Me, and eat what is good, And let your soul delight itself in abundance. _Is55:2
i'm happy. i'm so very happy. :)
new clothes which look good on you. if only for a while. new shoes which give the way you walk that extra bounce. if only for a while. new handphone or PDA which give you that sense of power and control. if only for a while.
even dear friends you thought may be yours forever. sadly. which may only be for a while.
have you ever thought what would be left of you, when all these pass away?
lift up your eyes & look within your soul.
do you truly love your life?
lets not embrace life with that cynicism we've all inevitably succumbed to. amidst disappointments from loved ones, friends, or even that someone you thought is forever yours to keep.. have you found that answer you thought would give your life something worthwhile to live for?
Why do you spend money for what is not bread, and your wages for what does not satisfy? Listen carefully to Me, and eat what is good, And let your soul delight itself in abundance. _Is55:2
i'm happy. i'm so very happy. :)
Wednesday, April 07, 2004
today is gonna be a LONGGG day.. haiz!
off to work in 1.5 hrs time. then gotta go all the way to jurong east to help leticia with her maths ( i live in sengkang). haha. better pack a few sandwiches or something. last week with the same schedule, having dinner on the train was HORRIBLE. bought sumthing from mac & i tell you! it was so unglam eating it on the train lor. haha. cos i simply refused to eat my fries without the mayonaise so i think it wasnt such a pretty sight. messy.. -_-
thank God i didnt happen to see anyone i know otherwise.. haha. *whoops*
aiyah.. beginning to get a little tired with work.. getting quite mundane. my employer, in his "save paper, save money" campaign, keeps getting me to cut & paste questions from these assessment books etc. I TELL YOU. even in my sleep i'm seeing myself cutting & pasting stuff. noooooo!
but then again, i shouldnt complain since i'm paid to work huh. meaning i'm paid to cut & paste.
speaking of getting paid, i cant wait to get my pay!! the last time he gave me the 140 bucks, i tell you it feels like it just disappeared & i dont know where it went, man. this is bad. singapore transport company is getting WAY too much profit. -_-
off to work in 1.5 hrs time. then gotta go all the way to jurong east to help leticia with her maths ( i live in sengkang). haha. better pack a few sandwiches or something. last week with the same schedule, having dinner on the train was HORRIBLE. bought sumthing from mac & i tell you! it was so unglam eating it on the train lor. haha. cos i simply refused to eat my fries without the mayonaise so i think it wasnt such a pretty sight. messy.. -_-
thank God i didnt happen to see anyone i know otherwise.. haha. *whoops*
aiyah.. beginning to get a little tired with work.. getting quite mundane. my employer, in his "save paper, save money" campaign, keeps getting me to cut & paste questions from these assessment books etc. I TELL YOU. even in my sleep i'm seeing myself cutting & pasting stuff. noooooo!
but then again, i shouldnt complain since i'm paid to work huh. meaning i'm paid to cut & paste.
speaking of getting paid, i cant wait to get my pay!! the last time he gave me the 140 bucks, i tell you it feels like it just disappeared & i dont know where it went, man. this is bad. singapore transport company is getting WAY too much profit. -_-
Tuesday, April 06, 2004
You are a negotiator. You'll do anything you can to avoid open conflict so you never start quarrels. You will give in when you think it's appropriate side. You are always wilful and most of the time, you are a stubborn person. But you love to work and are quite honest, which makes you good to get along with as a friend or lover.
the you-are-what-you-eat test!
the you-are-what-you-eat test!
Monday, April 05, 2004
alrightie!
been ages since i last blogged. anyways, watched the Passion of the Christ on saturday. all i can say after the movie is...
*speechless*
cried dunno how many hundred times in the movie.
i guess it's different with everyone. as bloody and gory as some may think, what struck me and touched me the most was how "human" Jesus seemed. He got scared, upset, yet in the end He took it all. Seeing the Word being portrayed in flesh in a movie like that, it sets a lot of things in place. it all seemed so real. & the most important part of it all isnt that He died on the cross. but that He went through it ALL for us. for you and I.
"...He was wounded for our transgressions, He was bruised by our iniquities, ...And by His stripes we are healed." _Isaiah53:3_
Thank you Jesus...
Anyways! as usual, went for svc on sunday & it was great! after which me & gideon went off to orchard to meet our ex-classmates, before which we met up with monica and jingshun for a while. convinced monica to walk with us all the way from orchard mrt to somerset mrt since me & gideon were going to cineleisure. eh! what are girlfriends for! haha..and the highlight of the day is...
khala turned up! *blows balloons* haha! fooled her into believing that i wouldnt be going and her reaction was hilarious i tell you. but then again in the end we didnt do anything much, just sat down & talked. the others ended up not watching Hidalgo cos me & gideon werent really up to another movie session. our pockets too.
tried to ask them to watch the movie without us anyhow but in the end they didnt. so.. feel guilty..
had gelato at taka basement & it was yummy! haha.
on a more personal note, was utterly disgusted & put off by this particular incident. like get a life. i guess i have nothing against this in general but in this case, it just does not seem right. honestly dont know what's the problem here but if it really is what i'm thinking then God.. i'm speechless. but maybe i'm thinking too much. yeah..
restless.
if you dont know what i was talking about, dont fret. if you do, then haha.
hmm.. a lil' bored.. i know what.. i shall start writing long overdue friendster testimonials! haha.. believe it or not. i havent actually got down to doing any.
:p
been ages since i last blogged. anyways, watched the Passion of the Christ on saturday. all i can say after the movie is...
*speechless*
cried dunno how many hundred times in the movie.
i guess it's different with everyone. as bloody and gory as some may think, what struck me and touched me the most was how "human" Jesus seemed. He got scared, upset, yet in the end He took it all. Seeing the Word being portrayed in flesh in a movie like that, it sets a lot of things in place. it all seemed so real. & the most important part of it all isnt that He died on the cross. but that He went through it ALL for us. for you and I.
"...He was wounded for our transgressions, He was bruised by our iniquities, ...And by His stripes we are healed." _Isaiah53:3_
Thank you Jesus...
Anyways! as usual, went for svc on sunday & it was great! after which me & gideon went off to orchard to meet our ex-classmates, before which we met up with monica and jingshun for a while. convinced monica to walk with us all the way from orchard mrt to somerset mrt since me & gideon were going to cineleisure. eh! what are girlfriends for! haha..and the highlight of the day is...
khala turned up! *blows balloons* haha! fooled her into believing that i wouldnt be going and her reaction was hilarious i tell you. but then again in the end we didnt do anything much, just sat down & talked. the others ended up not watching Hidalgo cos me & gideon werent really up to another movie session. our pockets too.
tried to ask them to watch the movie without us anyhow but in the end they didnt. so.. feel guilty..
had gelato at taka basement & it was yummy! haha.
on a more personal note, was utterly disgusted & put off by this particular incident. like get a life. i guess i have nothing against this in general but in this case, it just does not seem right. honestly dont know what's the problem here but if it really is what i'm thinking then God.. i'm speechless. but maybe i'm thinking too much. yeah..
restless.
if you dont know what i was talking about, dont fret. if you do, then haha.
hmm.. a lil' bored.. i know what.. i shall start writing long overdue friendster testimonials! haha.. believe it or not. i havent actually got down to doing any.
:p
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