yesterday i msged my auntie in s'pore telling her that i'll be back most probably the end of this month cos results will be out either end of feb or beginning of march.. asked if it would be okay with them.. the reply came this morning.

"Ok. but u'll need to vacate all your things once u're done w admission."

did that sound not very nice or am i just taking it too personally? oh dear.. i guess i still havent completely overcome this matter eventhough i'd like to think i have.. people who've heard me complain about this may find it so sickening cos i just never ran out of things to feel bitter about. i've tried to stop doing that. & i think i'm beginning to get it. but i must admit that so may times all i want is just to cry.

i dont want to tell my mum cos i know she'll be upset. i know she worries for me but she cant do or say a thing to make things better. there are a few people whom i hate to make them worry about me. i really mean it.
my mum is one of them.

oh dear. i think when i'm older i wouldnt want to have a daughter like myself. i'm such an irritant. i never made people feel good about anything. i make people sick & worried. i make people irritated cos i'm just me.

dont mind me i just need to make myself feel better. now i'm done. yay!
i'm older now. i think another chapter of my life is about to begin & i'm getting myself ready.

i want to be an overcomer.

oh yes, btw, spent valentine's day watching 12 episodes of the Korean drama, Winter Sonata. how erm.. interesting. haha!