i'm bored!!!!!!!! but i love my life. haha.

things i'm going to do when i get back to s'pore:

1.)pack my stuff into boxes & throw away useless stuff (for the zillionth time).
have i told you that i LOVE packing my room? i do that when i'm stuck at home. i do that when i'm stressed. i do that when i want a change. u'd probably think i'm a freak. i guess it's the sense of control that i enjoy having. :) like knowing that your things are in place. lemme see..
i know how i position this small hill of bags in my cupboard. i know what kind of knots i tie on my drawstring bags. i know which pen belongs where. & i always know when someone messes with my stuff. & i know it when my auntie wears my sandals. (urghhh.)
yes. i like to have my life in place too. :)

2.)read more newspaper & lookout for a cheap flat i can rent.if dont have then settle for hostels lor.. but then again i might not even get the priority to stay in hostels. (all these are being considered already at the assumption that i'm getting myself into NUS. haha!) hey.. if you dont try to be optimistic, what is there left to look forward to, right? *pats myself on the shoulder*

3.)maybe spend more time alone (eventhough i've had lots). i think i should get myself used to that. :)

oh well. that wasnt much of a list. i'm seriously beginning to lose the ability to think eventhough i know the list should have been much longer. there just seems to be so many unresolved things. it's tugging uncomfortably at the back of my mind. i think a lot of it has to do with human relations. what that is left unsaid. what only i myself know.

i think i have the tendency to think to much. u know, like taking a bus/ MRT alone & you just start to wonder abt things. people. myself.
urgh...my mind is a complex thing. it drives me nuts at times. especially when i'm left alone too often. haha!!

which goes back to the problem, why am i still alone at this age of nearly-19?? seriously, i think this is my mum's problem more than mine. considering the AMOUNT of comments & guesses & amusement than she displays. now where do you find a mum like that? i thought most mothers of teenagers nowadays are supposed to be those who sit their daughters down at the family living room & talk to them about the cons of having a bf & how it's going to ruin their life yadda yadda yadda. my mum does otherwise. & it isnt really helping.

hmm.. i think i'm too fierce. my mum thinks so too.

hahaha! this is so funny!
oh yeah, alex!! please stop wailing about the valentine's day thingy. *lol!*